star and lamp light

so much emotion
what you shouted to the night
i tend to agree

secrets

shredded
torn
between what this

carefully placed words

could it be?
i can't lead myself
to believe

again i
imagine

write me when you get this
let me know

whirlpools
drowning
unexplicable questions


and i can only wonder

severe emotion

it's that word
the one
without a translation

i feel it
in my very
being

intense longing
not quite
descriptive
enough

i think
i'm falling in love

and i may not even know you

but i hear
i hear your voice

and our song
they say we blended

it's that word
i miss the
place
but
it's the people i really
truly
long for

i'm falling in love with you

but how
when we stay so
far
apart

you're enough
far enough
to wait for

is this really love
because words can't
even describe
this pain

webs

stranded together
shared week

or days
it was a
connection

heavily clinging
the slight smiles
we shared


it was always the music

pulling back
home

forced our webs apart
i wept

across the sounds
still listening

it captured what
we may
or may not
have had

it's the time
of our lives

connections abound
between the
fibers
the being of
life

the quiet morning dew shatters

i'm falling

spread your
arms

jump for once
i'm gone before
you are so behind

take this


more than what
more than this

my body is here
my soul is there

let me know
when
we can go
together

come join
me

i'm spinning

my head
recalls the old
days and

laughs

gone away
today

perhaps this is
too vague,
abstract

can you understand?

do you see?
i'm inviting you
to come
with
me

i'm falling

as usual

so we
move on
carry on

business as usual

i seem to notice
the absence of your
eyes

so i
inhale the dark

trying to breathe
the sight of you
the split

second
we were

to move on
after this
is unbelievable

what
more
is
there

the natural
unrelenting
progression of life

as usual

ignores the fact
i'm by the wayside

facing behind

much more

the touch of you
holding me
to go back

it was so much
much more than
it ever was imagined
to be

the distinct melodic
sounds of
your voice and your
song

together we blended
and were
at rest

until this jarring
blast of reality


this is the happiness i will not have for long, and i will rarely place out to you. until i hear you again.

anticipation of what

it was a
while ago
we saw
one
another

we changed
of that
i am so
sure

but how will this be again
to me
and more
importantly
to you

i remember the letter
do you

this is raw
worry

if there
was only
a
safe
comfort
place to go back
into
if you
can't be

what you once were

as it is now

it was once
not so long
ago

we were like sun and stars
never apart
this is not the same

you continue to brush aside
the deep yearnings of mine

yet you do not know
and so

i wait
and breathe
to accept today
and hope for tomorrow

because i feel
i have met
someone else
to share

the sweet thoughts of
mine
without rhythm
or rhyme

i will choose myself
and my sanity