starsong

each time i wait
wait to hear this
this unearthly bliss
bliss created by mere mortals
mortals who give their all
all for this task
task of unending song
song of a new hope
hope for tomorrow
tomorrow brings the thought of you
you must listen for
for the undying light
light to illuminate
illuminate us standing here
here together
together at last

speaking of

what i was speaking of
this silly
goofy noise

why do you yell?

why do you scream?

easy and free
that's me

now you can't see
so high
am i

leave me

alone

of course

now that i can see the circle
i'm aware
of how insane

what has happened?
and why again?


vicious is it not.

but to rewind
and begin to feel
the yellow blade of life

pulsating forward
and escape

from this cycle
circle
we now see together

but to explode
will stop
the imploding from occuring

thank you

remembrance
creates much more
than what ever happens
now

i thank you

this connection
the seldom hello

i thank you

you make me treasure
life
and love

for you made me believe
in love

in retrospect
i miss you the most

and you won't know it
this is a lament

and the odd tale
of love

love

yes i say
love

who would have believed
that this was
in fact
love

cherished now

i thank you

and i welcome the thought
of long ago

i thank you

for nate

i watched it unfold

beneath your hands

there it was

i was in awe

so much

out of nothing?

tragedy struck

it fell intwo

your hand enveloped it

i rescued a piece

beautiful enough for me

i kept it for myself

treaured

that's what it should have been

but i failed

i lost this insignificant shard

somewhere

somehow

now all i have to remember

a voice

a look

and that you created

is gone forever

like i fear you are

whilst

seeing as i have missed you

i have pointed out i care

yet you do not see

gaps in time cause sorrow

not for you, for me

a better quest
could be

to find out, exactly

who are you?
and what am i missing?

pulsing

one after another

they come

i can't stop
what is happening now

break
pause
in two

rewarded

with a

smile

the crumbling wall

these things
blocking between
are gone

the security i found
with them
has left

what does that leave me with
how to start again

secrets

pushing
driving through me
i feel this passion

not with you
but me

my soul

strives
to go far away

the urgent pulsing through my veins
suggests a possibility
of life after this

the trick

fooling yourself
sounds so very

difficult

no

easy

when you really need
to believe
what you don't know
is true
or not

what pain?
what gain?

i disguise
the feelings
inside

steady love

the simple things
always
appreciated
for the quiet joy
they love to bring

the fresh insight
the joy
of newness
clean
emotions
oveflow

suspense
brings release
unspeakable
i see again
what i've been
quite longing
again to eye

sweet
felt now
cosmos

dream

unaware
i realize
that you've been here
before
with me
of all things
you twist
into fantasy
of life
seen before
with me
i make it my own
and miss the pure innocence
of you

numb

weary

when for it to end

why

nomalacy is wanted

peace is wanted

you should leave

pain

darting

quickly darting
i see your face
fade to black

quickly darting
i smell the race
fade to black

not real
not true

blinding insignificance of
miserable lines
of nothing
that count
for naught

it is anguish

quickly

an insight

the buildup
generally does not warrant the release
what is agonized over

doesn't happen

and i still miss you
want is there

but i know
the climax

will not be as i wish
yet a fade

into not
hin


g

here i am again

circles around
believing that i am running a race
but am i really just jogging still

what i want so badly is hidden
and not to be given to me
what a sad part to not have

why does conforming pose such a problem

i hear

in the instumental breaks
i can hear the sound
of whispers of night beyond this

ah..life

overexaggeration

tends to make it worse
as if you didn't know

problems don't exist
except for in your head

belonging to the abyss
of subconsciousness

just don't ignore
the disasters

wherin lies this

content?
is that what happens without worry

worry provides suspense and drama

which proves a bigger release.

i choose worry

over a life of leisure
and no purpose

worry

and perhaps hope

the importance of being alone

how much we want to be with people
is rivaled only

by how much we want to be with ourselves

to ignore what is happening

and understand that someone else can't change

you

or me
or myself

to give time for thought
and contemplation

and to fuse with solitude

you begin to understand more about
others