a different kind of pain

it's been far too long
the only thought i'm allowed to have

my breath doesn't come
my heart doesn't beat

for i'm anticipating
waiting

i'm on edge
tensed into coils

perched on the end
my heart clenches in agony

wrapped in torture
i can feel the whisp of you

tantalizing enough
to tempt me beyond measure

so close we've seemed
and to be cliche
so far away

what a different kind of pain